Light the night!

there are so many kids that are going through what Nevaeh is going through. SO many kids that are going through so much worse..... Some beat this battle some lose. But they are all warriors and stronger than you or I.
I figured a way to help would be through the Leukemia Lymphoma society. They ahve all kinds of walks and foundations that can help raise money for these kids. believe me its not money being wasted, it really is a huge help. This society helps the family alot especially in hospital stays.
SO i am participating in this walk called Light the Night. We are walking in Oct. at Discovery green park. and we need to raise money. If you would like to help leave me a message and an email address. I will send you the site to look on and my group name. Please think of Nevaeh and all the other kids that are fighting this battle!

New hopes,new state of mind(fingers crossed)

The 24th of this month marks a year since Nevaeh has been diagnosed. ALot has happened in a year,good,sad, and heartbreaking. Most of all a peace that I thought would never be found was found. Under so much pain and confusion,under so much anger and frustration. I can finnally breathe. I can finnally feel the peace i have been longing for. Though i have to reach out to God and ask for his help,I have it! Finnally. I know it sounds crazt to some.I know it does.But i have no other optionn except to lose my mind,my hope and my family.Because you go into a depression so fierce that you forget you have other children and a spouse. You forget that there is a world outside your hospital room or outside you house....
I have a speck of faith left in my heart and i gave it all to him. He has gave me grace in an abundance form and peace like no other ive ever had! So i celebrate my daughters year mark! no matter how much it stil may hurt from time to time,i embrace her life and Thank God for it all!!

Happy Birthday Princess Nevaeh

To my sweet princess Nevaeh, on your special day,
Filled with love, joy and grace-all this for you I pray.
You are our only daughter- the only girl,
Even more rare and precious than a salt water pearl!
I can still remember the day you were born-I could hold you in one arm,
And you always amazed us with all your charm.
Amazed by your smiles and your coos,
Just being near you could take away anyone’s blues!
Your name says it all:
You came from heaven by God up above,
You entered my heart with all its love.
You made my world pink and lace,
You melted my heart with your sweet heart shaped face.
Today, my princess you made another year,
Your growing so fast, that is my fear.
Just remember my sweet daughter:
Come hail, or high water,
I will always be here for you
In all that you prosper to do! I will always be fair,
Hurting you I could never bare.
You are my daughter my princess my star,
You’re growing so fast! It seems so bizarre!!
So let’s make books full of memories with your family and friends too,
Have fun on this day that we made so special for you!

new beginnings,new feelings new hope and fingers forever crossed

Its been so long sence i have written,Alot has changed....
I am no longer scared or worried,I am no longer afraid or confused.I dont think about things like I used to and I see days so much more brighter.
I enjoy life so much more now,I sometimes wander off in my thought and replay the first 6 months and I cross my fingers.
No more pain please....
I tear up and have a familar pain again when I think about it all
SO I close my eyes and think about today...
I learned a great lesson in this whole climb
God is in control,if you give it all to him her will help you breathe
he will help you see and he will take away your pain...

HAPPINESS

It's been so long sence I've shed a tear
It's been so long sence Ive had a fear
All I see before me is Happinsess and peace
All the sadness I have given release
My days are so much brighter
Knowing God has given me a little fighter!
He gives her a strength more powerful than I will know
A peace that seems to continuously flow
I am happy and full of God's grace
Knowing I can today see my daughters face
I will live for every single moment,for every single day
And enjoy my life along the way.
God has given me sucha life
He's blesses me as a mother and a wife.
So much to be happy for
I couldnt ask for anything more.

Happy Thanxgiving!!!!!

God has given me so much to be thankful for.
Here is my list of what I am grateful for:
First and for most I am Thankful for my Salvation
I am Thankful for my husband who Loves me so very much
He is my prince charming and my soul mate.
He shows me God is true and knows what is right.
I am Thankful for my oldest child Antony,
who gives me so much to be proud of.
Through him I see Hope only God can give.
I am Thankful for My second child Fili,
who through his autism has shown me God's Patience
and my goals.
I am Thankful for my munchkin Mateo,
who shows me with God all things are possible!
Through his disability I see God's light.
I am Thankful for my Princess Nevaeh,
She has shown me God is always good.He walks with me on these good days
and he carries me through the bad days.
I am Thankful for my family,
for my family in my church
and for my family in my life.
Through them I see God's peace and Love
I am thankful for the new family(sarah and her family)I have in my life.
Through them God shows me new beginnings.
I am Thankful for so many people in my life.
I am so very Thankful for the good days God gives me with my family.
And also for the bad one's because he always gives me HOPE!

My Lion Princess

My daughter Princess Nevaeh is and always will be a fighter.Those who know her no that she was made special.Her spirit is a of a fighter,of a great warrior, of a couragous Lion.She has a strength that only God can give and a hope that only he created.Many days I lay at night wondering ,what is God trying to show me or say? My daughter is my gift from God he gave her to me for
a special reason.I pray everyday that he lets me keep her.I pray everyday he gives me strength like she has.I pray that he gives me the courage he gives her.What a Couragous Lion I have.She is my Princess,My Lion Princess!