Friday, June 18, 2010

New hopes,new state of mind(fingers crossed)

The 24th of this month marks a year since Nevaeh has been diagnosed. ALot has happened in a year,good,sad, and heartbreaking. Most of all a peace that I thought would never be found was found. Under so much pain and confusion,under so much anger and frustration. I can finnally breathe. I can finnally feel the peace i have been longing for. Though i have to reach out to God and ask for his help,I have it! Finnally. I know it sounds crazt to some.I know it does.But i have no other optionn except to lose my mind,my hope and my family.Because you go into a depression so fierce that you forget you have other children and a spouse. You forget that there is a world outside your hospital room or outside you house....
I have a speck of faith left in my heart and i gave it all to him. He has gave me grace in an abundance form and peace like no other ive ever had! So i celebrate my daughters year mark! no matter how much it stil may hurt from time to time,i embrace her life and Thank God for it all!!

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Happy Birthday Princess Nevaeh

To my sweet princess Nevaeh, on your special day,
Filled with love, joy and grace-all this for you I pray.
You are our only daughter- the only girl,
Even more rare and precious than a salt water pearl!
I can still remember the day you were born-I could hold you in one arm,
And you always amazed us with all your charm.
Amazed by your smiles and your coos,
Just being near you could take away anyone’s blues!
Your name says it all:
You came from heaven by God up above,
You entered my heart with all its love.
You made my world pink and lace,
You melted my heart with your sweet heart shaped face.
Today, my princess you made another year,
Your growing so fast, that is my fear.
Just remember my sweet daughter:
Come hail, or high water,
I will always be here for you
In all that you prosper to do! I will always be fair,
Hurting you I could never bare.
You are my daughter my princess my star,
You’re growing so fast! It seems so bizarre!!
So let’s make books full of memories with your family and friends too,
Have fun on this day that we made so special for you!