Wednesday, September 30, 2009


heartrending
A adjective
1 grievous, heartbreaking, heartrending

causing or marked by grief or anguish; "a grievous loss"; "a grievous cry"; "her sigh was heartbreaking"; "the heartrending words of Rabin's granddaughter"

everytime Nevaeh has another treatment,or spinal tap or anything else that causes her to screan&cry it breaks my heart in2.Her pain is so unnesesary,she should be playing outside with her brothers!not in the hospital crying cuase they are going to poke her.Its all so crazy to me still.I just want to take her &run!My daughters pain and suffering is my heart being ripped out.I want to cry with her,but i cant....I got to be strong...let her see me strong...so she can be strong.Its all so hard!Im still wondering why sometines,i still think could they be wrong,i still wish to wake up from this dream,someone pinch me please!IS this how all the moms feel? is this what we all go through?Friday is a long appointment day.I am so dreading it,but we have to do it.(SIGH)i wish u could understand my heart

2 comments:

  1. Amy
    I read your post and have been where you are. Even as far along as James is in treatment there are some days that seem unbearable. Nevaeh is in the hardest part of treatment right now but she will get through it and things will begin to seem "normal". I will continue to check in on you to see how things are going.

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